What’s up

Hii. So you’ve probably noticed my absence lately. I already cancelled my makeup/beauty instagram account so it’s not hard to guess what’s next. I’ve been really stressing over my blog cause I just have so much to do and now with three kids I have re-evaluate my priorities. All my time goes already to taking care of them, homeschooling and all that jam. I really want to learn Bulgarian cause it’s about time and I want to enjoy summer as stress-free as I can. I stress out really easy so that’s never easy.

Then I started thinking about makeup. Yes, I do like to play around but it has never been a passion of mine. Since I haven’t been blogging, I have barely even put on makeup, cause I don’t care. Also I’ve always loved to shop for clothes, not makeup. But with the blog I’m constantly buying makeup I don’t need just to have something different to show here, or makeup I don’t even want but I have to have different color options.

Yes I could blog about other stuff, I tried that too, but it didn’t work out either. And I know I’m going to end up the same way whatever I’m blogging about, it’s just my character flaw not the blog’s fault. If I’d blog about cooking I’d be buying different plates and stuff to show off lol. I do enjoy blogging but lately I just have to ask myself “Is it worth it?” and at the moment the answer is “No”.

So, I’m sorry for being such a shitty blogger and a bipolar bitch that changes her mind way too often. One day I’m closing, then I’m returning, then I’m changing whatI’m blogging about, then I disappear and so on…. But I just have to go what I feel. As much as I want to please my readers, I need to please myself and think of my family first.

Will I be coming back? Right now I think not, but with me you just never know. Just hit that unfollow button and don’t worry about it! Thank you sooooooo much for the support and love you’ve given me! I appreciate the shit out of it! Take care lovlies!



Good news (kind of)

Hello my darlings 💙 Remember when I told you about my computer breaking and how I couldn’t use my camera either? Well, I happen to have this terribly old small Asus laptop that works. I can’t put my SD card in it cause there is already one that we use as storage for the operative system. And I don’t have the chord for my camera. Then I remembered I have the chord for my videocamera, I can just slip the SD card in there and connect it to the laptop! I felt like a genius! Lol.


It takes forever to load the photos, but better than nothing! Keep your fingers crossed that I can make it work!. I am planning to buy a new laptop in September, so it wouldn’t make sense to get the other one repaired for this short time.

If this works out I’m gonna publish one of the makeup looks I had on my camera ❤

Wish me luck and Have a lovely weekend,


“Adventures” during our trip to Veliko Tarnovo

Hello everyone, I hope everyone is well and enjoying their weekend so far. Today I’m going to tell you about everything that went wrong during our little trip from Sofia to Veliko Tarnovo last week :D

In the central bus station of Sofia we make the tickets for the bus, the kids don’t pay, so the cashier doesn’t make them the tickets. But every ticket has a place number on it… We sit down on the bus, not in our places cause the kids don’t have a nr anyway. Some people come to us about that & we explain the situation, so they go to sit on our numbers. Everyone looks so confused and panicking for the seats. Then comes the ticket controller and she doesn’t speak a word in english! We couldn’t understand what the heck she was saying and I was getting pretty pissed at her! Hubs told me I was getting scary with all my band gestures and louder voice…ups :D I don’t remember at all, I hate arguing and confrontation of any kind so I guess my brain tried to cancel these memories lol. But I got so angry cause she kept repeating the same things, instead of trying to make us understand. Secondly there was anyone who spoke english, there was a young girl (early 20s maybe?) with her and I don’t believe for a second that she can’t speak english, but she was just scared. It made me angry that she didn’t want to help. At the end we managed to understand something, I had to keep my son on my lap, cause there was one less seat. Thanks to the incredibly intelligent cashier I had to keep my son on my lap for all 3h and half! We were sweating out balls off, well he was, I was sweating my tits off :D I have mentioned my problems with anxiety, especially social anxiety so this was a nightmare for me. All the people i  the bus were staring at us, probably thought it was all our fault too, cause they didn’t understand a thing! I couldn’t stop thinking about it until the next day. 30 minutes from Veliko Tarnovo there is a bus base or something from where another person came aboard, so my husband had to take our other son in his lap! It was a hell of a ride for me :/ Finally we arrived exhausted, but safe.

Remember I told you guys how hard it was for me to move away from Veliko Tarnovo to Sofia, that I left my soul there, that I was truly happy there? Yeah, and now I was feeling so weirded out by the place, I kind of wanted to go back home, I was very anxious all evening and had trouble sleeping. My energy wasn’t used to that place anymore and acted as there was an anomaly. But there was good in that! Now I know it wasn’t the place that brought me out of depression and made me new, it was me and I can do the same thing here!

While packing our stuff the last evening I broke a zipper on the side of a sports bag, which meant I had a little less space. Then I broke a zipper on one part of the suitcase, thankfully I already closed it so it stayed shut with the things inside. When we started to walk towards the bus station we lost some pieces of the suitcase :D You know there are the wheels and then there is the part near the wheels to make the suitcase stand on – well we lost that part, so we had to keep it all the time :P This time we had made the tickets in advance and also the children had theirs. As we sit down, two young guys come over and show their ticket that 28 is their seat, strange cause we have 27 & 28! My head is already exploding like “noooooo, not again!” They sit in another place, but a women makes them go away cause it’s her place. She told that there is probably a second bus and practically told them to get the f… out :D I’m guessing there was a second bus, cause they never came back in again. Still I had a mini-heartattack thinking something was wrong again. Thankfully everything went smooth this time.

At the bus station on Sofia we miss our usual bus that stops right on front of our home. We decide to take another one that goes to our neighbourhood. After a few stops the ticket controls come in, they start to complain about our big suitcase (we read the rules before leaving to Sofia and measured it to be sure we’re in the norm). They say it’s bigger than allowed and makes us step out from the bus! My husband said he’s call the police to come and see who is right, so one of the women made a fake phonecall to them – the phone wasn’t even on! They keep measuring the suitcase saying it’s bigger then supposed to! The measures have to be summed up to the final measurement but they measured the “back” of the suitcase from left to right bottom AND top, same with the top they measured both sides. Please tell me how does this make sense! So they say we need to pay the penalty for having a larger suitcase, without any papers of course… We didn’t have enough cash with us, we offered her a 1lev coin which is the cost of the ticket, she walked away almost offended, gave the coin to my son and said “ice cream” 😂 They wanted to cheat some money into their pockets, but I guess it was too much work and not worth it lol.

We got on the next bus, that also went to our neighbourhood. All you needed to do for the suitcase was to buy a normal ticket for it, which only costs 1lev (about €0,60)….. So these ladies saw foreigners and decided to get some extra money, cause a decent human being doesn’t except someone from another country to know these kind of things and would just tell you to buy the ticket…. The good in this story was that this bus line passed from a part of the city we’d never saw before and discovered some new places to go to. You have to see the good in everything, right? ;)

From the bus stop we barely got home with our suitcase in one piece, it lost the wheels in front of the house! Finally home, sweet, home. Finally I can relax and blog from my computer, right? Wrong!!!! My computer broke the next day, I honestly didn’t know if to laugh or cry… :( It shouldn’t take too long to repair, but until then I’m gonna have to use my phone! It’s a good thing I took photos and drafted them at the other house before coming home. I decided not to let this throw me down, I’m gonna take as many makeup pics as I can fit on my sd cards and publish them as soon as I get my computer back :) I have this feeling that the Universe doesn’t want me behind the computer for some reason. Look how hard it made my trip and back! I guess the Universe has its reasons, I just wish I knew them too…

Lots of love to everyone and don’t let it get to you even when shit happens ;) There is probably a great reason for it :)


Schedule program

Hey there sweet followers. First of all I want to thank all of you, who stuck with me through all the changes, absences and chaos! I know I’m a mess, I can’t decide anything and I always change my mind, sorry for that. I can’t change my mercurial essence, but I can try to be a little more constant.

For that I created a blogging schedule, that wouldn’t bore me or overwhelme me and so you guys know what and when to wait for a post. I think I owe you this much. It might change in the future, knowing me, but I will let you know and I will also create a page to check the schedule if you forget or are new to my blog. How does that sound for you?

I made four main categories to divide the days. I will put out a post every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. And one post every other Wednesday.

Tuesdays it will be everything non-conventional, alternative, spirituality, alternative healing, plants & herbs, holistic health, astrology. You get the idea.

Wednesdays are for housewife, food, home related stuff. But remember it’s every other week, not weekly.

Thursdays will be dedicated for what I originally created my blog – makeup, beauty and fashion.

Saturdays are all about me. I will be giving my thoughts about various topics, life updates, random stuff about my life, my experiences etc.

What do you think? I kind of feel like I should do a separate category/day for astrology since there is so much to talk about. Well let me know your thoughts and suggestions on this new schedule!

Enjoy your Sunday or Happy new week to those on the other side of this planet 😘


I like….Nudity in nature

Attention! If naked human body makes you uncomfortable you should probably click out of this post.

No, I have not converted myself into a nudist and I won’t be running around bulgarian woods naked, but I can’t promise anything either :D I jsut think there is something very beautiful, pure and magical in being naked in the nature, becoming one with the surroundings.

Just take a deep breathe and imagine being in these beautiful places, being free, no fear, no shame. Feels good doesn’t it? :)

Django Unchained. Everything Unchained.

I started my morning with this sad but emotional story that fortunately had a happy ending. All living beings on this planet are compassionate in their heart and capable of love, so many stories about humans helping animals but also animals helping humans and other species. No one was born cruel and un-caring. Every day there is a small change towards more loving world where ALL living beings can live peacefully and in love and I hope to live to see that day! I send all my love to these lovely people who stopped to help this poor dog, to Django and that he may find love and peace and happyness finally and my prayers will go out for the new dog who’s probably now chained up in Django’s place!
Humans were ment to be the caretakers of nature and all it’s animals and living beings not to take advantage of them and destroy them!
May love guide you in all you do,

Run Vegan

Laura and I went for our run Saturday, hopping in the car to drive out to our favorite running path…and almost made it. Driving down the street adjacent to a fairly neglected neighborhood we both caught sight of a dog walking down the sidewalk, his tail between his legs and a large chain padlocked around his neck. Padlocked. Seemingly involuntarily I hit the brakes on the car and pulled over. The dog stopped.

I tentatively got out on my side of the car and talked to the dog in a calm voice. He didn’t run, but didn’t come towards me either, frozen in either fear or curiosity. I waited for him to start barking or growling, but he did neither. I saw wounds on his legs and assumed the worst. I didn’t walk any closer and he trotted a safer distance away from my strange presence. I walked to the…

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I like….Fairies

There is no other creature as magical, as delicate and as gracious as fairies. Do you belive in fairies?

“Fairies are invisible and inaudible like angels.  But their magic sparkles in nature. “

~Lynn Holland

“Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery hand in hand,
For the world’s more full of weeping than you can understand.”
~William Butler Yeats, “The Stolen Child”

“We the Fairies, blithe and antic,
Of dimensions not gigantic,
Though the moonshine mostly keep us,
Oft in orchards frisk and peep us.”
~Thomas Randolph

“Blind folk see the fairies.
Oh, better far than we,
Who miss the shining of their wings
Because our eyes are filled with things
We do not wish to see.”
~Rose Fyleman

“Faeries, come take me out of this dull world,
For I would ride with you upon the wind,
Run on the top of the dishevelled tide,
And dance upon the mountains like a flame.”
~William Butler Yeats, “The Land of Heart’s Desire,” 1894